Recently my chinese star software spoilt, so i have to write my blog in english. :-)
This few weeks the desire to win an award is very strong in my heart. I can feel it crawling all over my mind. I miss the feeling of standing on the stage receiving the award, the applause, the eyes of enviness from audience. It just cannot get out of my head.
I always received or win award when i was young. In primary school, i win many competitions every year eg story telling, chinese and english, singing, etc. Can't remember. I was the clever little girl. I even win state and district level competition. Standard six i'm the school role model. I think that was 1 of my biggest achievement. So, that time the newspaper even send their reporter to do an interview with me. I think today my dad still keep the newspaper cutting. Ha!
Then during secondary school. everything change. I'm no longer the clever little girl. My result was just ok eventhough i still manage to maintain in good classes. No winning in the whole 5 years of secondary school. The best one i remember was i got 2nd for Form 2 results. That's my best achivements.
University life is about playing n going out with guy. No concentration on book. I'm the bird that just released from cage, can't wait to explore. No winning. It was a very typical university life.
For 10 years i've forgotten the feeling of winning.
When i graduated, my first job also no winning. Eventhough every year i hit target, but everyone think that's my manager's effort.
Then 2nd job, in abbott. Due to good leadership from my previous manager, i did win. I was the 2nd best sales rep in the whole south east asia (including malaysia, sg, indonesia, thai, philipines, pakistan,etc) In return, i won myself a free trip to Hawaii with andrew. A place that i never dream i'll have the chance to go.
Everything seems very normal for me before i left. Because i treat it as my normal vacation. But when i reached there, my thought change completely. This is a trip where i was appreciated and treated like god because we are the best among the others . There are about 200 abbott employees including the best from US, europe, south america, asia, aus, etc. Wow....I actually got the chance to meet the company's director. (Everythime i just received their e mail n newsletter).
During award presentation, i am very proud. Because i'm the only malaysian there. And the people there dont even know where is malaysia.
Now everytime when my colleague share their experience of winning supremacy award, they always thought that all of us has not win before. I always tell myself, i have win before. And i received the award in front of foreigners, best of abbott from all over the world. I know the feeling of winning. And i miss the feeling. seriously miss.
But action is the most important thing if i want to win. I've won after 10 years of not winning anything. And i want to continue to win.